TOPSY AND HAVOC

TOPSY AND HAVOC

YOU'RE FAST

This morning I hiked the Y trail. I started hiking this trail 3 to 4 times a week last May and did it through the middle of Fall. I just recently started back up again because the weather has been nice and also I don't have a gym membership anymore.  

When I was about half way back on my way down, I passed a man coming up who I started the same time with. He said, "You're fast". I told him I do this about 3 times a week so I should be. Smiling. I was smiling. 

Since this morning I've had anxiety that he thinks I'm smug. He thinks I was bragging. He thinks I'm really lame. He thinks I could have just said "thank you". I meant that I'm fast because I've spent so many months being really slow. I meant that I didn't just hike this for the first time today and zip right up the trail. I meant don't feel bad for being slow because I didn't even go to the top the first couple of times. But you know that and he does too? 

I don't have this kind of anxiety when I'm not on my period. 



4 comments:

  1. It's times like this you just have to force yourself not to think about it. And if I had been the old man, I would have been motivated by your comment and felt hopeful that if I kept at it I too could get faster and more in shape.

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  2. I'm like this A LOT. Even a little bit after my trip to Vegas (crazy). I just have to eat somethings tasty and shrug the weird anxiety off.

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  3. Oh, WORD. I know this exact feeling. Except for the hiking several times a week, that really is impressive and you should be proud of it.

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